Four Poems by Joe Wilkins

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Klamath, Self-Portrait

I tried matching once the beats of my heart
to the wing-pulse of the kingfisher
up and down the river. I read religiously
the idiot scribbles of fire-scars
on the ridge above Jenny Creek. Against the moss
I set my lips just so and pulled from the seep
a dirty mouthful. And when thrashing
through the willows I scared up a black bear,
which leapt into the river, swam straight across,
and before disappearing into the far trees forever
turned back, I tried seeing what the bear saw.



Klamath, Praise Song 

With every given hour of this never-again afternoon,
I stood neck deep in dark creek water,
salmon fry nibbling
at the backs of my knees.



Klamath, Aubade

It is difficult to undo our own damage,
and to recall to our presence that which we have asked to leave.
– Annie Dillard

I dream up the meadow deer come running like rain in the beginning—one, two, three, four. Now a thousand more. Hooves hammering at the mountain. Shoulders slick with froth & mange. Great snorts of lung-wheezed blood.

Down the river trail I see the reason is someone has built a boardwalk, erected streetlights, invited in a carnival—balloons, the complex stink of sugar, grease, & piss—& here’s a row of shops, a glass high rise, a sports arena,

& as if to top it off by the abandoned warehouse crooning on the corner,

sky blue suit & everything, I find a boy I knew

when I was just a boy, though he’s been dead for years. I’m looking for the woods,

I tell him. I’m looking for the river. I’m wishing you’d stay dead. Either that, or you’d never died. He dances this way, then that, now throws his head back & really belts it out—a tune all distance, glass, & gravel. I’m disappointed but understand

the only thing the dead can do for us is sing.

I hunch my shoulders then. Cross the tracks. Wander pitted streets. Plastic bags & crushed paper cups. A burnt-out car, front seat brimful

of bones. Down around me I try to pull the weak light of city stars, wear like a shawl the light. I reach & reach, & with the taste of weeds & diesel on my tongue

I wake. I dress. I run into the meadow, sink into the tall grass, my back against a sugar pine. My breath as far as the distant ridge, my heart as black.

From the woods two deer step into the meadow’s bluer waters. I rise into a crouch, bones levered against the earth. I would like

to take them in my arms, to take & eat them.



Explain: Fog

An island of sidewalk below us

                                                                                            & black leaves

damp bootmashed bleeding

                                                                              another step

another gray isolated

                                                         nation we don’t know

we never know log-trucks blue

                                                                             & dark as whales

wake of wind pulling

                                                         at the birds

the trees

                                       the highway’s


                                                         everything but the fog

which swirls once

                                       & never untouches

us come close child

              only what is close




Joe WilkinsJoe Wilkins is the author of a memoir The Mountain and the Fathers: Growing up on the Big Dry and three books of poetry, When We Were Birds, Notes from the Journey Westward, and Killing the Murnion Dogs. Wilkins lives with his family in western Oregon, where he teaches writing at Linfield College.
Read poetry by Joe Wilkins previously appearing in two poems, two poems, and two poems.

Header photo of river in Oregon by Unsplash, courtesy Pixabay. Photo of Joe Wilkins courtesy Joe Wilkins.

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