When We Say Knuckle Down
we mean there’s torque to be
doubled, the way the quarter-
horse re-couples her shoe-heavy
hooves, head down, and throws
herself forward, we mean
the load in the sled demands a
hard haul ahead, the hill to be
taken as a problem not of moment
but momentum, we mean
the chili will taste better once
the bitter bread of winter’s eaten,
slashing our faces sheet on sheet,
just as in summer we mean
it matters not how hot the sun
if there are chores to be done.
The knuckles have nothing
to do with it really, not the ones
around reins or handles, not
the ones we wring like rags over
figures evenings—no we don’t
mean those—we mean the knuckles
of our wills, those folding bones
in there somewhere where our
lives have hold of the land—
we mean that the whole body,
the whole mind, the whole
damned soul is a goddamned hand.
When My Father Says Toughen Up
it’s like the clop of the walnut
block beneath the gavel of the
judge who fits the punishment
to the crime, or like the pop of the
velveteen seedpod of the lupine
finally scattering its ordnance of
shot amongst the hollyhock,
or like the aftershock of a
Massey Ferguson engine cut off
too hot, that chuff out the muffler
that echoes off the pole barn
sharp as a whooping cough,
or like the upstart of a startled
roughed grouse thumping into
flight right beside you on a walk,
or like the hard clap on the back
you get when you choke, as if
to congratulate you. He didn’t
say it to berate you, he said it to
hike you up an inch or two, like
when he took you by the collar
when you were little to zip you
into that boiled wool jacket he
sent you out to chores with,
or like the high salute we send
soldiers to wars with.
When My Mother Says Tough Luck
it’s like the rough leather
tongue in a boot somehow,
the way you dig your
thumb in there when it gets
stuck to curl it out again
against the topside
of your foot and pull it flat
so you can truss it up,
or like the slap of milk
on milk in a metal bucket
carried up the ramp
to be dumped in the bulk-
house tank with the rest,
or the clink of the bucket
handle against the bucket
once the milk’s poured out
and the bucket’s done
its chore, or like the
prayer a shucked off pair
of garden gloves cough
softly when they’re chucked
from the hand and land
filthy on the back porch floor.
Photo of old barn interior courtesy Shutterstock.