After Alan Weisman
Praise Darwin’s finches, doggedly reproducing
until nothing is wasted.
Grub-eater, cactus-eater, insect-eater.
The cashier asks, paper or plastic?
I peer into my cart, envisioning oceans—
gyres of hot air, whirling
water sucking up bottle caps, cups,
Is this where it all winds up?
Like the yellow balloon
my son grasps, promptly lets go
in the parking lot, flying
over a sea of trucks and cars, over our green
city, where we
wheel plastics to the curb, our discards
shipped on barges
to China, tossed into soupy rivers
that flow into town.
Balloon down, Jackson demands
the next day, not knowing
things can disappear. He wants them all back:
his lost copy of Goodnight Moon, the melting
snow cone I chucked into trees after the fair.
Now this balloon.
How many tides until its resin
washes up on the Beagle’s
Plymouth Harbor? Or gets trapped
inside transparent bodies
of Galapagos jellyfish, the colorful polymers,
mistakes, fish eggs?
Balloon down, Jackson reminds me
a week later, standing in our
front yard, looking up at the clouds.
Consider how we’re made of carbon, those atoms, their incomplete
shells always pulling us toward something—
our legs intertwined, your hands, mine. How love’s molecular
architecture builds upon itself, proteins, thousands of atoms apiece:
This house, these pine trees. Dandelions spring and parsley needs
mincing. Compost oxidizes behind a swing, the ropes you looped
over a branch. Our son pumps his legs, heaven-bound. He’ll be
in his dreams when you come home. We are mostly empty
space, each electron in its vast orbit. Never enough time in the day.
Socks hang on the line, water evaporates. I’m waiting
for you, tired from another day’s scenery under microscopes
and centrifuges (the world I cannot see). The sky darkens,
but look here: this leaf, I cup its small green veins in my hand.
The Basil Erupts in Flower
The basil erupts in flower, the afternoon
while your brother runs swing
to sandbox to fence. I feel your persistent
kicking and wince.
No longer a thought nestled inside me,
you’re all heft and demanding.
Now I want the names of these branching
When your brother was conceived,
all of me was infatuated
with one growing thing.
For eight months, you and I
have shared space, yet when I think
of you, it’s only
to catch my breath or prepare
something more to eat. Abundance?
It used to scare me. Red clover, cabbage
white butterfly, gill-over-the-ground.
Silver maple, spruce.
Header photo by Eirena, courtesy Pixabay.